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Saturday, July 18, 2009

Down in the Dumps

I just feel down. Right now. I want to cry. I want to just pour away all the hurt and pain inside of me. I long to speak out my fears, my uncertainties, my worries. I wish I could just wash away the woes.

Life is really a cycle. One day, you are the happiest person ever. The next, you ask yourself how such sadness could exist. The only thing that makes you go on, while you are in this grayish dark tunnel, is the thought that maybe you will see the light again.

I have my family. I have my friends. I have a career. I will one day own a house. I plan to buy a car in the future. I get to travel a lot and get paid for it. I meet new and interesting people. I have the ability to write and I was able to publish a few articles and letters in national magazines and dailies. I have been through so much pain that have made me stronger and wiser.

And yet, right now, I feel so unhappy. So empty. So wanting to voice out the aches trapped inside of me.

Why do I feel this way? It is because of the non-existence of a special person in my life whom I can share what I am now going through. Happy Birthday to me. =(